Amen! It shall be this way!
I haven't felt this way for such a long time. The reason why I am feeling this way is when I am totally burned out. I guess I just haven't been resting well.
I am having a slight headache now and is resisting the urge for panadol. Best thing to do now is take holy comm, pray and sleep :)
Thank you Jesus, Your broken body made me whole. You have bore the headache on the cross and in Your name, it will have to flee! Amen!
Monday, October 4, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
Let Go & let God
Today, I finally understand what it meant to let go and let God.
This morning, the NYP intern fell and injured herself and is now on a 4-day MC. daddy God, keep her close to You and may she have supernatural healing. Amen :) Anyway, as we have arranged her for some coaching assignments, I have to get replacement for her. To add on to this, there was another coach who fell sick and it just happen so, the same school now needs 2 replacement coaches. So much of coincidence! When I learned about all these, I really thank God that He kept me safe and healthy. At the same time, I am worried about how I am going to get 2 replacement coach in a day. Knowing the schedule of most of my coaches, I know it is a close to impossible task. Then I remembered how Jeremy always say: "Nothing is impossible with God. Amen!". Somehow, picturing him saying this, made me smile :)
So I continued my day coaching and worrying about getting replacement. During my breaks, I called up coaches, sms them but all replies were negative. Finally, at my wits end, close to tears, I started to pray. I called out to Daddy God and my fave verse just kept popping in my mind: "If God is for us, who can be against us?". This alone, I know there's hope.
After lunch, I went back to office for meeting and was still contacting the coaches, asking them to take time out to help me. Each time I get rejected, I just kept praying and proclaim victory through Jesus. By 6pm, I only managed to get 1 replacement. That moment, I sat at my desk, staring into space not know what to do. As I began started packing my stuffs, getting ready to go home, all that was in my head is: "Die. Tomorrow not enough coach.". I was so negative, for a moment I hated myself.
As I walked out of the office building, I stopped in front of this playground, looked at the children playing. Naturally, I smiled. Then I remember how I got this job, how in God's divine timing I became a coach and began making a difference in the lives of the children I coach. So I said a simple prayer: "Abba father, my life is Your project. You brought me here. If there's a problem, You fix it.". As I walked away from the playground, suddenly a name of a coach popped into my mind. The human me started to reject the idea of calling this coach i thought of. Yet another part of me says: "CALL HER NOW!". I stopped, took my phone out & called her. Yes.. HALLELUJAH! She became the other replacement coach.
Truly, let go and let God. If God is for us, who can be against us?
This morning, the NYP intern fell and injured herself and is now on a 4-day MC. daddy God, keep her close to You and may she have supernatural healing. Amen :) Anyway, as we have arranged her for some coaching assignments, I have to get replacement for her. To add on to this, there was another coach who fell sick and it just happen so, the same school now needs 2 replacement coaches. So much of coincidence! When I learned about all these, I really thank God that He kept me safe and healthy. At the same time, I am worried about how I am going to get 2 replacement coach in a day. Knowing the schedule of most of my coaches, I know it is a close to impossible task. Then I remembered how Jeremy always say: "Nothing is impossible with God. Amen!". Somehow, picturing him saying this, made me smile :)
So I continued my day coaching and worrying about getting replacement. During my breaks, I called up coaches, sms them but all replies were negative. Finally, at my wits end, close to tears, I started to pray. I called out to Daddy God and my fave verse just kept popping in my mind: "If God is for us, who can be against us?". This alone, I know there's hope.
After lunch, I went back to office for meeting and was still contacting the coaches, asking them to take time out to help me. Each time I get rejected, I just kept praying and proclaim victory through Jesus. By 6pm, I only managed to get 1 replacement. That moment, I sat at my desk, staring into space not know what to do. As I began started packing my stuffs, getting ready to go home, all that was in my head is: "Die. Tomorrow not enough coach.". I was so negative, for a moment I hated myself.
As I walked out of the office building, I stopped in front of this playground, looked at the children playing. Naturally, I smiled. Then I remember how I got this job, how in God's divine timing I became a coach and began making a difference in the lives of the children I coach. So I said a simple prayer: "Abba father, my life is Your project. You brought me here. If there's a problem, You fix it.". As I walked away from the playground, suddenly a name of a coach popped into my mind. The human me started to reject the idea of calling this coach i thought of. Yet another part of me says: "CALL HER NOW!". I stopped, took my phone out & called her. Yes.. HALLELUJAH! She became the other replacement coach.
Truly, let go and let God. If God is for us, who can be against us?
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Im back, fresh and re-charged!
I just read my last blog entry. Boy, I am was emo.
I was away for GenRev Marked camp from 7 - 11 Sept 2010. It was my first ever church camp. I remember how I used to hate attending church services and CG, not to even mention a church camp. New creation Church have indeed made me a new creation through Christ. Knowing Jesus all over again and see Him in His loveliness through His finished work totally changed my life.
Anyway, camp was mind blowing. Up till today as I read my notes from the sermons, I get new revelations. Suddenly, I felt as if I am a new believer getting to know how God sees me through Jesus and what He wants me to have for this season of my life.
Its the 4th day of work since I came back from camp. Today, I said and did some things that i have never imagine I would do or say. Even talking to my boss and hearing her reaction from the phone, I know she knows there is a change in me. a positive change which came effortlessly and radically without me realizing. It's amazing.
Anyway, I have a NYP intern with me for the next 2 months. Up till now, I still can't believe I am her supervisor! LOL. She 's been following me around for coaching, learning the ropes of my job. coordinating the coaches schedule and the programmes. Thank God she came along. It took some load off me. Of course, on my side, I hope she can learn something from me and from my company by the end of the 2 months.
God bless her!
I was away for GenRev Marked camp from 7 - 11 Sept 2010. It was my first ever church camp. I remember how I used to hate attending church services and CG, not to even mention a church camp. New creation Church have indeed made me a new creation through Christ. Knowing Jesus all over again and see Him in His loveliness through His finished work totally changed my life.
Anyway, camp was mind blowing. Up till today as I read my notes from the sermons, I get new revelations. Suddenly, I felt as if I am a new believer getting to know how God sees me through Jesus and what He wants me to have for this season of my life.
Its the 4th day of work since I came back from camp. Today, I said and did some things that i have never imagine I would do or say. Even talking to my boss and hearing her reaction from the phone, I know she knows there is a change in me. a positive change which came effortlessly and radically without me realizing. It's amazing.
Anyway, I have a NYP intern with me for the next 2 months. Up till now, I still can't believe I am her supervisor! LOL. She 's been following me around for coaching, learning the ropes of my job. coordinating the coaches schedule and the programmes. Thank God she came along. It took some load off me. Of course, on my side, I hope she can learn something from me and from my company by the end of the 2 months.
God bless her!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Day 1
I dont know since when, as I pray my morning prayers, you are in it too. Can't help but really want to bless you, want you to be blessed and be a blessing to others.
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I want to walk out of my past
Yes, I want to. BADLY. But I don't have the ability to.
I did something ungodly today. Something I would classified as falling back into my past life. A life that is not right in the eyes of God because thats not what I am created for. But I couldn't help it. Best part, I dont feel guilty at all. Instead I thank God I had the courage to face it and admit it. Becos I think the worst thing one can ever do is to lie to yourself.
Theres no point hiding from it and say to myself: "Lizhen, you are a Christian, you cannot be like that. It is ungodly." I tell u, this thinking is totally crap. No one in this world can ever be godly. The only person I know of that ever lived is Jesus. Thats why, we need God.
I know my sins are forever forgiven and what I have done today, God will remember no more. I also know at this point of time, it is easy for me to fall back into my past life so I curse all the emotions, feelings and desires in Jesus's name. They shall not come any where near me. Amen!
I will curse them every day until I feel them no more.
Yes, I am determine.
Judging from how heartbroken I am now, I know the cursing days are going to be long.
I did something ungodly today. Something I would classified as falling back into my past life. A life that is not right in the eyes of God because thats not what I am created for. But I couldn't help it. Best part, I dont feel guilty at all. Instead I thank God I had the courage to face it and admit it. Becos I think the worst thing one can ever do is to lie to yourself.
Theres no point hiding from it and say to myself: "Lizhen, you are a Christian, you cannot be like that. It is ungodly." I tell u, this thinking is totally crap. No one in this world can ever be godly. The only person I know of that ever lived is Jesus. Thats why, we need God.
I know my sins are forever forgiven and what I have done today, God will remember no more. I also know at this point of time, it is easy for me to fall back into my past life so I curse all the emotions, feelings and desires in Jesus's name. They shall not come any where near me. Amen!
I will curse them every day until I feel them no more.
Yes, I am determine.
Judging from how heartbroken I am now, I know the cursing days are going to be long.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Savor the moment
Im savoring the moments now. Well, it is better to be content with hows things are now then to expect for more and when it doesnt turn out as expected, I feel all upset right.
u made me smile
I am easily content and happy knowing I am the beloved child of God. nothing beats this happiness. Nothing.
What came close today was when u said: "My beloved friend."
In my mind, I thank God and whispered. Good enough. I am content.
What came close today was when u said: "My beloved friend."
In my mind, I thank God and whispered. Good enough. I am content.
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