Let Go & let God

Today, I finally understand what it meant to let go and let God.

This morning, the NYP intern fell and injured herself and is now on a 4-day MC. daddy God, keep her close to You and may she have supernatural healing. Amen :) Anyway, as we have arranged her for some coaching assignments, I have to get replacement for her. To add on to this, there was another coach who fell sick and it just happen so, the same school now needs 2 replacement coaches. So much of coincidence! When I learned about all these, I really thank God that He kept me safe and healthy. At the same time, I am worried about how I am going to get 2 replacement coach in a day. Knowing the schedule of most of my coaches, I know it is a close to impossible task. Then I remembered how Jeremy always say: "Nothing is impossible with God. Amen!". Somehow, picturing him saying this, made me smile :)

So I continued my day coaching and worrying about getting replacement. During my breaks, I called up coaches, sms them but all replies were negative. Finally, at my wits end, close to tears, I started to pray. I called out to Daddy God and my fave verse just kept popping in my mind: "If God is for us, who can be against us?". This alone, I know there's hope.

After lunch, I went back to office for meeting and was still contacting the coaches, asking them to take time out to help me. Each time I get rejected, I just kept praying and proclaim victory through Jesus. By 6pm, I only managed to get 1 replacement. That moment, I sat at my desk, staring into space not know what to do. As I began started packing my stuffs, getting ready to go home, all that was in my head is: "Die. Tomorrow not enough coach.". I was so negative, for a moment I hated myself.

As I walked out of the office building, I stopped in front of this playground, looked at the children playing. Naturally, I smiled. Then I remember how I got this job, how in God's divine timing I became a coach and began making a difference in the lives of the children I coach. So I said a simple prayer: "Abba father, my life is Your project. You brought me here. If there's a problem, You fix it.". As I walked away from the playground, suddenly a name of a coach popped into my mind. The human me started to reject the idea of calling this coach i thought of. Yet another part of me says: "CALL HER NOW!". I stopped, took my phone out & called her. Yes.. HALLELUJAH! She became the other replacement coach.

Truly, let go and let God. If God is for us, who can be against us?

Im back, fresh and re-charged!

I just read my last blog entry. Boy, I am was emo.

I was away for GenRev Marked camp from 7 - 11 Sept 2010. It was my first ever church camp. I remember how I used to hate attending church services and CG, not to even mention a church camp. New creation Church have indeed made me a new creation through Christ. Knowing Jesus all over again and see Him in His loveliness through His finished work totally changed my life.

Anyway, camp was mind blowing. Up till today as I read my notes from the sermons, I get new revelations. Suddenly, I felt as if I am a new believer getting to know how God sees me through Jesus and what He wants me to have for this season of my life.

Its the 4th day of work since I came back from camp. Today, I said and did some things that i have never imagine I would do or say. Even talking to my boss and hearing her reaction from the phone, I know she knows there is a change in me. a positive change which came effortlessly and radically without me realizing. It's amazing.

Anyway, I have a NYP intern with me for the next 2 months. Up till now, I still can't believe I am her supervisor! LOL. She 's been following me around for coaching, learning the ropes of my job. coordinating the coaches schedule and the programmes. Thank God she came along. It took some load off me. Of course, on my side, I hope she can learn something from me and from my company by the end of the 2 months.

God bless her!